a kingdom built of seeds

  • when God descends

    when God descends

    Some summer weekend mornings I like to write a few pages with coffee in my room then move to the deck that faces the sunlight with a book of poetry hearing the birds in the background (this morning mostly sparrows and juncos dancing around in the dirt) then set down the book to watch the… Continue reading

  • survival and sustenance

    survival and sustenance

    There’s this ethereal place I’ve always wanted to reach but never can. Never will. A place I want to reach but cannot find. Where everything and everyone will be okay. Whole. All things and persons as they should be. All things and persons made new. For as long as I can remember I’ve longed for… Continue reading

  • the lack

    the lack

    Though we search we’re never whole. There is always something missing. And somehow, someway, God is near in this. Christians may call it “the fall,” a product of original sin, some catastrophe unintended but fixable. If it’s this, it’s also much more than this. They say God will make it all okay, now or then,… Continue reading

  • indoor/outdoor faith

    indoor/outdoor faith

    For the last two years I’ve taken a month-long road trip in the autumn, living out of my truck, sleeping in the bed on a wood platform under a topper, changing in parking lots, setting up and tearing down, cooking outdoors (weather permitting), staying the night in gorgeous isolated forests or in not so beautiful… Continue reading

  • other voices

    other voices

    Why are we so often afraid of other voices? Do they shake our own fallible security in certain beliefs? Do they threaten an errant assurance of our own subjective truth and relative experience? Why are we so afraid of different views and opinions and interpretations? Why do we feel the need to fight tooth and… Continue reading

  • person over power

    person over power

    I see the Ravi Zachariases and Mark Driscolls and John MacArthurs of the world and know if these men were the summation of what I believed about the church, Christians, God, I would run as far as I can and never look back, except to glare. But then I avert my gaze and there’s another… Continue reading

  • 34

    34

    The sky is blue on my birthday morning. White still clings to trees and layers the earth. The sun will melt it off. What a beautiful day to be alive. It’s not about my birthday. It’s about being alive today. Recently I heard this phrase and I can’t stop thinking about it. “I don’t want… Continue reading

  • it is good (2)

    it is good (2)

    It’s both/and, not either/or. Both the spiritual and physical, wrapped into one, as God intended. In the beginning, why did God place us in a garden (whether it’s a literal story or not is irrelevant) instead of a detached “heavenly” or “spiritual” space if the physical is less significant? Apparently, the physical matters to God,… Continue reading

  • it is good (1)

    it is good (1)

    Sometimes I find myself feeling a little guilty for enjoying my life and loving my humanity. Do you ever feel this way? I love living in the mountains. This lifestyle isn’t about winning or being better or the best or constantly pushing boundaries. It’s about appreciation and enjoyment, reflection and sustainability, gratitude. And just as… Continue reading

  • grace (3)

    grace (3)

    One evening this winter I sat in the hot tub and watched the darkening evergreens and the winter evening’s cotton candy sky above the dimming landscape. I looked up at the clouds and picked out their morphing shapes. I kept watching that sky of subtle reds and pinks and purples, quiet oranges and yellows, above… Continue reading

“When we pray to love God perfectly,
surely we do not mean only.”

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taking every opportunity that comes my way to explore a new area. this one was a gem. thankful for the great crew i could enjoy it with! In my spiritual background there was little room for belief and practice outside of a straight and narrow view of faith. As I grew older and more self-aware, I noticed I’m not as concerned with arriving somewhere, but more so with the questions that keep us moving. i just can’t get enough I’m going to begin touching on topics (or beliefs or doctrines) I have personally wrestled with, or still am. This is not a theological examination. Nor are solutions and answers presented. My aim is to stir questions, propel reflection, and honor experience. Each individual is responsible for their own conclusions, according to their own conscience, before their own God. a successful scouting weekend with some fantastic partners soul turns with @jpwalksaround some of my favorite lines from Canada. some uphill slogging led to some “maximum fun” 😃 (forgiving is remembering)