surrender
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tell them what it’s like
Your whole person was formed to be someone specific—a faithful follower, a committed Christian, on fire for God. You look at all the words, models, and messages now; they appear so vastly different from here, on the outside, than from there, on the inside. There was the message but only one way to live it, Continue reading
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this is what it’s like
How would I describe it? It’s like losing your way in a familiar place. The spaces that once brought you comfort are now sources of discomfort. Who you once were is now a stranger. The God who once felt so near is now distant. Your faith is far away. Your love is weak. You do Continue reading
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I’m like you
I’m like you. If you’ve never had a vision. You don’t speak in tongues. When others around you seem to have an encounter with God, you have none. You’ve sat in a crowd of believers wondering, “Why not me? What’s wrong with me?” You’ve wondered what you’re missing, what you don’t have that others do. Continue reading
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:static:
Sometimes I feel left in the dark. As if I have questions even God can’t answer. Or chooses not to. Why are we left alone when we are most in doubt? Sometimes silence is just what we need, even when we want anything but static. I no longer know what to ask. So silence is Continue reading
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you can’t give God everything
Intellectually and theologically I can’t state exactly what I “believe”. But I can feel and sense what I believe. I don’t think my way through life as much as feel my way through it. Is this wrong? Does this come back to “the heart is deceitful above all else”? Yet it says to love the Continue reading
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forgiving is remembering
We are what we come from but not only that. Forging ahead we bridge the divide between who were—the parts that fit and the pieces that don’t—and who we are becoming. Not who we are, mind you, for we are always the becoming, not a static arrival. Think back to your father and mother, your Continue reading
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movement
I sometimes feel a sense of guilt at re/moving myself from familiar spirituality, from my roots, from certain religious practices, from pieces of my history and context, from unquestioning Christianity. I “should” on myself—I should be involved, I should serve, I should attend, I should do this and that spiritual discipline whether I feel like Continue reading
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Week 49: detachment (part 2)
Healthy detachment is freeing. Of course, some level of attachment is required for true love and relationship and community. But not the kind of attachment that says, “I need this…I cannot live without this…I must have this…without this I will not be okay…” A healthy combination of detachment and attachment means: “This thing/person is good…I Continue reading
a kingdom built of seeds 